Monday, February 14, 2011

My First Love


He saw me and knew I was the one. I was so young and naive when I first met him. Although my very existence cried out to him, I didn't really know him. It wasn't until I came face to face with him in full surrender that the sweet romance began.

He's the one who called me by name before I came into existence...

...who did not rescue me in my grief but, lead me through the valley.

...who pursued me when I chose a different way.

...who chased me when I ran.

...who accepted me when I turned back.

...who comforted me when I was lost.

...who protected me when I was left vulnerable.

...who offered me his hand when I fell.

...who lifted me when I was broken.

...who cherished me - for me.

...who summoned me and said I was his.

In my surrender - sweet surrender - I came face to face with death. Death of my own desires. Death of my own destination. Death of life as I knew it.

I came face to face with humility and grace. Awe and wonder. Abundance and blessings. A new life transformed.

My heart is riveted by his presence. I become flustered and limp in his arms. 

Yet, I am still found guilty of turning my gaze to the distance, of wonder if there is a more provoking love, of something more I must be missing.

Yet, he continues to lead me to the desert. He allures me there with his tender words. And in a place of desertion, loneliness and confusion he gives back what is my hope. And I know there is no other.

An undeniable romance.

Faithful to no end.

A lasting love. 

A fairytale love.

Is and always will be my first love.
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Today I am simply grateful for the lavish love that fills the very well I draw from to pour out and love well those around me.

10 comments:

  1. This is so, so beautiful Theresa...It is amazing and this love is ours forever and ever and ever...I am so thankful that we found each other--you are definitely a kindred bloggy friend:)

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  2. Hello again. Thanks for stopping by. I enjoyed your post and was thankful for the reminder to be thankful for God's amazing love. The title, "My First Love" is great. Parts of your post remind me of something I posted last year. http://messycarsandmuddyshoes.blogspot.com/2009/09/learning-about-love.html. Hope you're having a good week.

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  3. I clicked over from Ann’s today. A little late – but there are so many to read!

    First – amen, you put it so well – we loved him because he first loved us – and he was your first love – that is awesome! And then he’s your list. God is your list. Nice.

    God Bless and Keep you and your family

    Oh, and Happy day after Valentine’s Day.

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  4. beautiful! what an amazing love we can have if we only desire a relationship with him!

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  5. It's so good to see my daughter with a strong relationship with the Lord. His great love is what it is all about. He created us first for relationship with Him,and sent His son to make that possible through His death and resurrection. Love ya, Dad

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  6. Beautiful!

    I'm your newest follower :-)

    Love,
    Traci @ Ordinary Inspirations

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  7. Theresa, this is absolutely beautiful, maybe especially so for me because I feel that it mirrors my own heart. I have always marveled, truly marveled, at how God has continually sought me ... pursued me ... and loved me.

    His grace, His love that protects and hopes and is always faithful. I have seen His grace poured out to overflowing time and time again in my life -- my life truly is marked by grace. There aren't words enough. Thank you for this post ... and for linking up. A true blessing.

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  8. Thank you, all, for your precious comments!

    Erika, I am in awe over how amazing our God is. Nothing speaks to me more than to see the consistency of God through individual lives spread across the globe. This love story is written over and over again in the hearts of His chosen. His love is truly amazing!

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  9. Absolutely beautiful! God is awesome... I don't understand how He can love me, but I'm so glad He does.

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